“We are all a little weird and life’s a little weird and when we find someone whose weirdness is compatible with ours, we join up with them and fall in mutual weirdness and call it love ♥”
Negative thoughts.. Get outta me!
082913
8:28PM
Hey. Its me ugh-gain.. Stella. Umm I don’t know how to start it but I definitely hate what i’m feeling lately. You know what? Mmmmm.. I OVERTHINK TOO MUCH!!!! And I also know it’s a bad thing to do. I just can’t help myself doing such thing as that. I really can’t. Ughhh! I want to get rid of this.. Bcos it’s just a waste of time, seriously! Most of the time I can’t focus on other things bcos I’ve been thinking so so much. And yeah! The sad part of what I’ve been thinking.. It’s all the flaws, mistakes and the wrong things she’ve done and this scribbling thoughts of “what if? thingyy” is totally depressing.
All I need now is an Anti-whatever-you-call-it pills. For me to get focus and not to be distracted easily with all of the things fumbling on my mind.
HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY TO ME! ♥
I’m so Eighteen. Geeeez 🙂
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Day 4
Let’s cuddle all night.
Ohh Yuri ❤
April 17, 2013 – 1st day. So unexpected but it’s definitely wonderful.
April 24, 2013 – 2nd day. I still can’t believe that all of those shizz are happening.
May 4, 2013 – 3rd day. Drunk and wasted. But I know I had a great time.
May 10, 2013 – 4th day. Sleeping Mags.. haha she’s so naive. She don’t even know what’s happening.
May 17, 2013 – 5th day. @ VT, one of the most memorable place and night. “Cun.. makes me SMILE :)”
June 29, 2013 – 6th day. 3-4times? Haha so close to ADDICTION? 😮
July 13, 2013 – 7th day. Tired and wasted. ( Gimme gimme. Love on top )
July 18, 2013 – 8th day. BigMac. Yeeeeeey! “Surprise her and she will definitely love it.”
July 25, 2013 – 9th day. BULLSHIT daaaaaaay.
August 03, 2013 – 10th day. “Expectations leads to disappointments.” 😦 *sigh*
August 10, 2013. 11th day. Teary eyed haha 🙂 It feels like heaven. Yeeey! 😉
August 23, 2013. 12th day. BIRTHDAY SE…LEBRATION (CELEBRATION) ♥ THE BEST! haha
August 26, 2013. 13th day. HAPPY MEAL! 😦 🙂 :)))))
September 1, 2013 14th day. HAPPY 1st monthsary.. Unofficial? Say what. Lol
September 2, 2013 15th day. Continuation for our 1st month Se..lebration (CELEBRATION) ♥
September 5, 2013 16th day. UP UP UP-stairs. Haha
September 7, 2013 – 17th day. Happy Meal 😉 … ( stairs )
September 11, 2013 – 18th day. HARDCORE! Oyeahhhhh.
September 16, 2013 – 19th day. Her.. Happy meal && Me.. -,-”
September 19, 2013 – 20th day. RED ALERT! tsktsk
September 20, 2013 – 21st day. Her.. -,-” && Me.. Happy meal 😉
September 21, 2013 – 22nd day. Sometimes
September 26, 2013 – 23rd day. SLEEP OVEEER!!, midnight snack && morning breakfast.
September 28, 2013 – 24th day. Twins haha. Some things happens so quick. Lol
October 03, 2013 – 25th day. Free booze and smoke @ Mud’s crib.
October 04, 2013 – 26th day. It just happened. Hahahahappy meal.
October 05, 2013 – 27th day. 3 consecutive days. OMFG. Addiction? No waaaaaaaay!
October 08, 2013 – 28th day. Free booze again together w/ my Leah beb.
October 13, 2013 – 29th day. DOWNLOAD ~
October 17, 2013 – 30th day. The “Ugh Feeling” -_____-” (why you so epal bri? FU.)
October 19, 2013 – 31st day. 2 months bday celebration haha.
October 27, 2013 – 32nd day. Tired and sleepy. So lazy to do something (after swimming *w/gheryl*)
November 04, 2013 – 33rd day. Quicky (w/ muds and mags) Lol.
November 08, 2013 – 34th day. Happy meal *Spoiled Gf*
November 14, 2013 – 35th day. Make-up RAAAAK!
November 17, 2013 – 36th day. I MISS YOU baby :*
November 22, 2013 – 37th day. Movie marathon ~
November 26, 2013 – 38th day. Free massage w/ some extra service 😉 If you know what I mean hoho 🙂
November 28, 2013 – 39th day. Make-up RAK!
December 01, 2013 – 40th day. After Party, we’re so free to do anything (Y).
December 05, 2013 – 41st day. HAPPY TTH 🙂 2thumbsUP.
December 06, 2013 – 42nd day. Sleepy me. Zzzzzz. But thanks to my wake-up-pills. Lol
December 11, 2013 – 43rd day. HASHTAGWeshot hihi 🙂
December 13, 2013 – 44th day. Bonding101.
December 17, 2013 – 45th day. Spacool HAHAHA
December 23, 2013 – 46th day. Advance Christmas gift 🙂
December 30, 2013 – 47th day. Before the year ends hihi 🙂
January 02, 2014 – 48th day. 1st Rak and 1st make-up rak for 2014 haha
January 03, 2014 – 49th day. GOOOOO! Heaven O:)
January 09, 2014 – 50th day. Belated 2nd month celebration haha
January 12, 2014 – 51st day. #Weshot (make-up raaak)
January 18, 2014 – 52nd day. Before the party started. *Creamyyyy*
January 20, 2014 – 53rd day. HBD Mommy. (Another make-up raaaak)
January 24, 2014 – 54th day. NUMBER GAME 😉
January 30, 2014 – 55th day. HEAVEN O:)))))))
February 13, 2014 – 56th day. HAPPY Titillating Thursday =)
February 15, 2014 – 57th day. Spoiled Girlfriend tsk haha
February 17, 2014 – 58th day. She’s not feeling well ugghh 😦
February 20, 2014 – 59th day. TONGUER FTW ♥
February 24, 2014 – 60thday. Promises are meant to be broken haha
. . . . to be continued
A never ending story!
I have something to tell you.
I have something to tell you
Something that not so sweet
But surely so special
I have something to tell you
It’s just an artless words
But surely meaningful
I have something to tell you
Eventhough it’s hard for me to say
The words I’ve tried to hide
Now, this is the right time
To let you know
The words I have to tell
So, I write this poem
Specially for you
Because this is the only way
To let you know
How much I love you, And
How much you mean in my life.
– Stella 04/12/10
I’m just an aspiring poet that time. Honestly, I don’t know why I wrote this. Sorry for the grammatical error and for my lousy vocabulary! Hihi. Umm, I really hate doin’ poems/essays but this is a nice try anyway. I’m still hoping that I can do better than this next time, what I mean is more poetic and metaphoric kind of poem that every person can relate about it. Hahahahah “HOW I WISH..”
My rollercoaster of emotions for 2012.
January – something’s not right. . .
February – I’m so over him.
March – I’m on a process of forgetting.
April – FLIRThingyyy.
May – boys are BULLSHITS!!!
June – lonesome. no stress. carefree!
July – I’m okay, now. I like being alone. It gives me more time to settle my emotion.
August – friends are my new ’s
September – happy w/ mah awesome friends.
October – seeking for the right guy.
November – happiness that goes down to a heartbreak.
December – misandrist. I’m tired of hoping.
Puzzled.
I think, I think too much or I just don’t fathom why she need to share the photo of the girl who likes her so much. Umm, so what does it mean? I don’t really get it. Is it okay If i’ll just ignore it or should i ask her about that? Ahhhhhh.. Overthinking is so stressful! I need more sleep sooooo I will not give a fuck for tonight. Hope she’s “happy” for the things she’ve been doing lately.
062213
11:18 PM
Making out.. Is it good/bad?
Why boys crave much for “making out”?
Maybe, this is one of the reasons why I distaste boys. It’s simply bcos they seem to make out with the girls they like not knowing if the girl will fall for them or not. After that they will just leave the girl and not care for her for a long time and then, if they get bored and want to make out again they’ll call this poor little girl as if they like, love or care too much for her just to indulge what they want.
So cold weather.
Hi. Its me. Certainly! Nothing change, still the same old me. Summer ends and it feels cozy as it seems. I really love the cold weather tho. These days are such a good vibe to me.
Unlike before, I feel lonely and sad every time its raining but now, its kinda opposite of that feeling. Hope these lovely weather lasts longer.
Wish Upon A Shooting Star 